Surprise in Labor and Delivery! Part 1

March, 1982- 11 p.m.-Labor & Delivery

Mary Lou, our assistant nurse manager, wrote our assignments for the night shift on the large white board at the nursing station after we listened to report from the evening shift. We only had 5 women in labor so far, so she gave me Helen in the birthing room and the first admission.  Helen had 2 children at home, was 28 years old, and was dilated 5 cm (halfway). She was at 37 weeks gestation, which was technically 3 weeks early, but typically the baby would have mature lungs and be over 5 pounds in weight.

I walked into the birthing room and introduced myself to Helen and her husband, Mike. Helen was a pretty blond lady with large blue eyes. Her dark haired handsome husband seemed quite attentive to her. She looked exhausted from labor and being pregnant. As a contraction began, she began to do her Lamaze breathing as Mike held her hand. I placed my hand on her swollen abdomen to feel the strength of the contraction.

After it let up, I asked, “Do you know if you’re having a boy or a girl?” Helen replied, “No, Dr. J. doesn’t believe in doing ultrasounds if the pregnancy is normal. We already have a boy and a girl at home, so we’re ready for either.” I checked her blood pressure which was normal,  and then did an internal exam. The amniotic sac of water around the baby had not broken yet, so we were not yet monitoring the baby’s heart beat internally. She was further along now.

I looked at the external monitor strip which recorded a normal heart rate and variation at an average of 130 beat per minute. I wrote my assessment and initials on the monitor strip, and said to Helen and Mike, “I’m going to call Dr. J at home and tell him to come in. You will probably deliver in the next hour.” Helen groaned and began her breathing as another contraction started. I left the room, wrote my new assessment on the white board, and called Dr. J. and then assessed another patient in labor whose nurse was in the delivery room.

When I returned to Helen’s room, I found Dr. J with her. He was in his scrubs, and said he just broke her water. Since she was fully dilated, he told her to start pushing. As this was her third baby, she would probably deliver quickly. I pressed the call light and asked the tech, Theresa, to come in and assist. I removed the bottom of the birthing bed, put Helen’s heels in the stirrups, raised the head of the bed, and gave her the steel handles on each side of the bed to grip. Theresa wheeled the sterile table out of the closet and uncovered the instruments so they were all ready for Dr. J.

Helen gave 3 pushes, and the baby’s head crowned, covered with blond hair. Dr. J told her to push gently, and a perfectly formed baby girl slipped into his hands. He suctioned out her mouth, she grimaced, and let out a nice cry. The beautiful sound of that first cry never ceased to amaze me! I pulled the Apgar cord and wrote down the birth time: 11:50 p.m. Her one minute apgar was excellent at 8/10 as Dr. J. placed her in the warmer. She appeared to weigh about 5 pounds, which is slightly small for 37 weeks. I congratulated Helen and Mike on their new baby girl and rubbed her dry with the warmed blanket and put a cap on her head to help her retain her body heat.

As Dr. J massaged Helen’s abdomen to deliver the placenta, he said, “You have another baby in here, Helen. You’re having twins!” Helen immediately began to cry and said, “Oh no, how will we ever pay for another baby?” Mike turned pale. My heart quickened as twins are always a high risk delivery, especially surprise twins. I had never delivered twins in the birthing room before, but it was too late now to move her to the delivery room. I pressed the call light and told the tech at the desk what was happening and asked her to get the resident in here and the Neonatal ICU nurse stat! The room quickly filled with extra staff so we barely had room to turn around.

Thankfully, the second baby was also head down and came out equally as easily 5 minutes later. She was also a girl! Dr. J placed her next to her sister in the warmer and we quickly dried her off. She also had excellent Apgar scores and appeared to weigh around 5 pounds. We handed one girl to Helen and the other to Mike to hold, and they both seemed to relax a little as they began to get over their shock of having not one, but TWO new babies!

Surprise twin girls!

Surprise twin girls!

I silently prayed that Helen and Mike would realize that God could give them His love, strength, and finances in Christ Jesus if they would only trust Him. I thought of many childless Christian couples who would absolutely love to raise those beautiful twin girls in the nurture and admonition of the Lord. Children are so precious to God because He creates all of us.

Lo, children are an heritage from the Lord; and the fruit of the womb is His reward. Happy is the man who s his quiver full of them… Psalm 127:3, 5

The father of the righteous shall greatly rejoice, and he that begets a wise child shall have joy of him. Your father and your mother shall be glad, and she that bore you shall rejoice. Proverbs 23:24-25

After I woke up the next afternoon, I was glad it was my day off, giving me some extra time to think and pray. I continued to pray for the new twins to be healthy and receive Christ as Savior at a young age. Sometimes it’s difficult to be content and be single since most of my friends are married and having children. I wonder if God will ever give me a husband and children? I know His will for me today is to simply fix my eyes on Him and be content. I opened my Bible and read,

Not that I speak in respect of want; for I have learned, in whatever state I am, in this to be content. Philippians 4:11

It always encourages me to read this and think of the great Apostle Paul who God used to write these words. Apparently he was  a widower during the last part of his life and had to learn contentment also. I decided to get out my cassette tape on “Social Relationships” by Dr Stephen Olford to review Biblical principles of companionship, comradeship, courtship, and singleness. I always feel better after listening to it. Especially when he says, “You dear young people, if God wants you to marry, He will NEVER allow you to miss meeting your life partner!”

Dear Lord, Help me to rest in You in sweet contentment and just live one day at a time. Thank you that I am single today and that Your ways are so much higher than my ways and that You make no mistake. Amen.

Reflection

I was thrilled to find Dr. Olford’s message at the following link:

http://www.sermonindex.net/modules/mydownloads/viewcat.php?cid=426&min=20&orderby=titleA

I think every single person and parent would greatly benefit and be encouraged by this message. The Lord has allowed me to continue to be single. I no longer fear being single as I did when I was younger, because God has been so kind and gracious to me over the years and has provided for my every need. I praise Him for His precious gift of contentment.

Some years ago, God guided me to the wonderful verse in Isaiah 54:1

Sing. O barren, you who did not bear; break forth into singing, and cry aloud, you who did not travail with child; for more are the children of the desolate than the children of the married wife, says the Lord.

After I read this verse, the Lord showed me that there was no limit to the number of spiritual children I could have. How wonderful!

Next week I will continue with the next surprise of that very busy night in Labor and Delivery.

 

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God’s Mercy in Tragedy

February, 1991

When I returned from my survey trip to New England, my Dad called me to say that Mom had had a small stroke (TIA-transient ischemic attack). A small blood vessel broke in her brain. Her doctor started her on persantine, baby aspirin, and digoxin medications.

She began crying on the phone when I talked with her because she is so afraid of having a larger stroke. I told her Christ is the only one who can give her peace and strength, and that she needs to receive Him as her Savior. My Dad seems to be in denial of the seriousness of the situation. I wish I could go visit her where she lives in Florida, but it is difficult to get the time off work. I wrote her the following letter, and pray for her to have a receptive heart.

“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding.” Proverbs 3:5

Dear Mom,

I just wanted to let you know that I am praying so much for you. Perhaps God allowed the stroke to happen to bring you to the end of yourself and your own resources so you will come to Him just as you are. He loves you so much! You cannot work your way to heaven or come to God on your own merit. That is why Christ died on the cross in our place, for your sins and mine. Now all He wants you to do is receive Jesus Christ as your personal Savior. For all those who do, He gives eternal life, and gives us His righteousness.

Mom, none of us know how many days we have left here on earth. But I’m looking forward to heaven and the joy of worshiping the Lord there forever. I so want to see you in heaven also for all eternity. When you believe in Christ as your Savior, He gives you the peace and joy that passes understanding, even in the midst of severe trials. (Philippians 4:6-7; Romans 5:1-9) It is also a comfort to know that God works all things together for good for His children (Romans 8:28) and won’t test us above what we are able to bear (I Corinthians 10:13). 

If there is anything I can do for you or if you just want to talk, please don’t hesitate to call me. Also, please read through the gospel of John several times and notice all the times the word “believe” is used. 

Much Love in Christ, Pam

March, 1991 – Florida

On March 13, Mom had a second major stroke and ended up in the Intensive Care Unite (ICU), between life and death. I could not talk with her, so committed her to God and asked that she would receive Christ as her Savior. She survived and was transferred to a rehab center. I was able to fly down to see her on March 13 and praise God that I had a good opportunity to be alone with her today and talk. She told me she now believes in Christ as her Savior, knows she has eternal life, and a home in heaven! I asked her if she wanted me to read the Bible to her, and she replied with enthusiasm, “Yes!” I read John 14:1-6 and she quoted the entire passage with me!

Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life; no man cometh unto the Father, but by Me. John 14:6

I read her Philippians 4 and when I reached verse 11, I told her that the Apostle Paul wrote this when he was in prison.

Not that I speak in respect of want; for I have learned, in whatever state I am, in this to be content.

She is a kind of prisoner in her own body now that her left arm and leg are paralyzed, but she can learn to be content in Christ like Paul did. She replied that she is thankful that she still has one good arm and leg and can still talk. Then I read Psalm 23 and she quoted the entire psalm with me! She said she was trying and trying to remember it when she was in ICU, but it just got all mixed up in her brain. Then she asked me to read it twice more so she wouldn’t forget again.

The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want (lack)….Psalm 23

I found her little Bible in her home that she had before she was married. In the back flyleaf she had written John 14:1-6, John 3:16, and Matthew 11:28-29. Her father was a Baptist pastor and I am sure she memorized many Bible verses as a child, but she rebelled against God all these years. God is so faithful to bring to her memory all those verses from her childhood when she was alone in ICU. I think she now has the mind of a ten year old child and became childlike enough to trust the Lord as her Savior. It took cancer ten years ago and two strokes to bring her to believe in Christ, but now she is saved by His grace! How I praise Him!

Salvation is of the Lord. Jonah 2:9

Reflection

My Mom learned to walk again short distances with a quad cane, but her left arm remained paralyzed the rest of her life. My father faithfully became her caregiver the next five years, and they traveled to a number of places across the USA with her wheelchair and their travel trailer. When they visited my new church in New England, she delighted in singing the traditional hymns of her childhood and hearing the Bible teaching.

My parents traveled all over the USA after my Mom's stroke.

My parents traveled all over the USA after my Mom’s stroke.

The stroke changed her taste buds so all she would eat was mashed potatoes and cookies. She developed breast cancer, and the Lord took her to heaven at the age of 75, five years after her stroke. She chose “The Old Rugged Cross” and “In the Garden” to be sung at her funeral. It is so comforting to know she can walk again in her new body and is delighting in our Savior in the fullness of glory!

 

Dirty Needle Stick in Dialysis

Summer, 1989

I have been working in outpatient hemodialysis on evening shift now for about six months, four days a week with every Wednesday and Sunday off. When I work every other Saturday, I also have Thursday off. Wednesdays are a welcome break in the middle of the week to run errands, schedule appointments, and teach afternoon Bible Club on for the neighborhood children, followed by prayer meeting in the evening at church. I’m also getting more sleep since I don’t have to get up at 5 a.m.

Sometimes it is a bit lonely since most of my friends work during the day when I’m available to see them. I’m learning more and more to be content with Christ and Him alone. Philippians 4:11-12 continues to bless and challenge me when I think of how Paul wrote this when he was in prison in Rome. “Not that I speak in respect of want; for I have learned, in whatever state I am, in this to be content. I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound; everywhere and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and suffer need.”  I figure if the Apostle Paul had to learn contentment, I can learn to be content also during the lonely times and draw near to the Lord.

I thank the Lord for helping me pass and become certified in ACLS (Advanced Cardiac Life Support). This is a requirement for every dialysis nurse since we are in a separate building from the hospital and do dialysis in the ICU (intensive care unit). I learned how to intubate people when they stop breathing and  to order the correct drugs during a cardiac arrest. It was nerve wracking to run a mock code, but the Lord helped me remember all the correct steps!

I like working with the other nurses and technicians on the evening shift. There are three blocks composed of six patients in each block, so we can dialyze 18 patients at once. There is one RN and one tech assigned to each group. When we start at 2 p.m., we complete the dialysis for patients who were started around 11 a.m. After they are off the machine, we set up each machine for the evening patient with his individual dialyzer, which we can reuse a number of times. We use new tubing each session. Some dialysis units reuse their tubing also, but we don’t. We also give a new life changing medicine called Epogen  at the end of each dialysis session. It helps the patient produce their own red blood cells so they don’t become anemic and need fewer blood transfusions. The patients are starting to feel so much better on this new medication!

Some of the technicians are men who are also firemen/Emergency Medical Technicians (EMT) and work part-time in dialysis on their day off from the fire department. They are a fun bunch of guys who really keep cool in emergencies and are excellent at sticking the needles in the patient’s arm fistula or graft. I’m getting much better, but if I don’t get the needle in first stick, I ask one of the EMT’s to do the second stick. They love telling us stories from their fire runs and how they handle each situation. There is a real sense of team work on this unit which is refreshing!

Inserting dialysis needles is an acquired skill!

Inserting dialysis needles is an acquired skill!

I have enjoyed getting to know the patients on evening shift also. Many of them are young and in school or work during the day. Some are waiting for a kidney transplant. I’ve had several opportunities to share the gospel with them, and pray for each of them to receive Christ. They are all very aware that they will die without dialysis three times a week. If they cheat on their fluid restriction or eat too many high potassium foods, they have a rough dialysis session because we have to take off more fluid.

This past week, I was chatting with Jim, one of my older patients, as I took him off the machine. After I took his needle out of his arm, I quickly pressed a wad of gauze on the needle site as Jim placed his finger on top of mine to apply pressure for 5 minutes. As I put the dirty needle in the red bucket for medical waste, somehow the needle  pricked my finger on my other hand through my glove. I pulled the needle out of my finger, put it in the bucket, took off my gloves, and pressed gauze firmly on my finger. I quickly walked to the sink,  vigorously washed my hands with warm soapy water,  and applied a band-aid to my finger. As I scrubbed my hands, I prayed, Dear Lord, Please don’t let me get HIV or hepatitis from this needle stick.

A deadly blood disease was discovered in 1981 among gay men and IV drug users called Human Immunodeficiency Virus (HIV). Some health care workers have also contracted HIV from contact with blood or fluid from HIV infected patients. Some patients have gotten HIV from contaminated blood transfusions and later died from the disease because there is little treatment for it yet.

After washing my hands, I went to my head nurse to report the needle stick. She said we had to go talk with Jim to get his sexual history and obtain permission to draw his blood to check for HIV. Thankfully, he was hepatitis negative at his semiannual blood draw. I was glad that Jim had told me previously that he had been married to his wife for over 50 years and was a farmer before he retired. I nervously approached him and quietly explained the situation. He told me his wife was his only sexual partner, and he signed the release to be checked for HIV. I was so thankful to hear that he was faithful to his wife! I drew his blood and sent the tube off to the lab.

A couple days later, Linda, my nurse manager called me at home. “Pam, we just got Jim’s lab test back and it was negative for HIV! I just informed Jim also.” “Thank you, Linda, for letting me know here at home before I came to work.” I hung up and got down on my knees before the Lord. Dear Lord, Thank You for protecting me from this deadly disease. Thank You that my times are in Your hands. Use me for Your glory and honor.

“When I am afraid, I will trust in Thee. In God I will praise His word, in God I have put my trust; I will not fear what flesh can do unto me.” Psalm 56:3-4

Reflection

Similar to the pink face shield I wore in dialysis

Similar to the pink face shield I wore in dialysis

When I first started my nursing career in 1977, I didn’t even wear gloves to start IVs in patients! In dialysis, I remember they gave me a pink plastic face shield and latex gloves to wear whenever I put needles in or took them out to protect my face and skin from blood. I finally became proficient at feeling the vein through the gloves and applying the tape afterwards.  I later developed a latex allergy from the many years of wearing latex gloves. Now, I only wear nitrile gloves and require a latex free operating room whenever I need surgery.

Ryan White, who fought courageously to educate the public about HIV which he contracted from a contaminated blood transfusion

Ryan White fought courageously to educate the public about HIV which he contracted from a contaminated blood transfusion.

For those of you who are younger, I encourage you to read about Ryan White (1972-1990) who had hemophilia, a bleeding disorder requiring frequent blood transfusions. At age 13, he contracted HIV from a contaminated blood transfusion. He was cruelly ostracized from his school because students and parents were so fearful of catching HIV from him. In those days, a person usually only lived 3 to 6 months with HIV. Here is the link to Ryan’s story: http://hab.hrsa.gov/abouthab/ryanwhite.html

 

Surprise in Labor and Delivery! Part 1

March, 1982- 11 p.m.-Labor & Delivery

Mary Lou, our assistant nurse manager, wrote our assignments for the night shift on the large white board at the nursing station after we listened to report from the evening shift. We only had 5 women in labor so far, so she gave me Helen in the birthing room and the first admission.  Helen had 2 children at home, was 28 years old, and was dilated 5 cm (halfway). She was at 37 weeks gestation, which was technically 3 weeks early, but typically the baby would have mature lungs and be over 5 pounds in weight.

I walked into the birthing room and introduced myself to Helen and her husband, Mike. Helen was a pretty blond lady with large blue eyes. Her dark haired handsome husband seemed quite attentive to her. She looked exhausted from labor and being pregnant. As a contraction began, she began to do her Lamaze breathing as Mike held her hand. I placed my hand on her swollen abdomen to feel the strength of the contraction.

After it let up, I asked, “Do you know if you’re having a boy or a girl?” Helen replied, “No, Dr. J. doesn’t believe in doing ultrasounds if the pregnancy is normal. We already have a boy and a girl at home, so we’re ready for either.” I checked her blood pressure which was normal,  and then did an internal exam. The amniotic sac of water around the baby had not broken yet, so we were not yet monitoring the baby’s heart beat internally. She was further along now.

I looked at the external monitor strip which recorded a normal heart rate and variation at an average of 130 beat per minute. I wrote my assessment and initials on the monitor strip, and said to Helen and Mike, “I’m going to call Dr. J at home and tell him to come in. You will probably deliver in the next hour.” Helen groaned and began her breathing as another contraction started. I left the room, wrote my new assessment on the white board, and called Dr. J. and then assessed another patient in labor whose nurse was in the delivery room.

When I returned to Helen’s room, I found Dr. J with her. He was in his scrubs, and said he just broke her water. Since she was fully dilated, he told her to start pushing. As this was her third baby, she would probably deliver quickly! I pressed the call light and asked the tech, Theresa, to come in and assist. I removed the bottom of the birthing bed, put Helen’s heels in the stirrups, raised the head of the bed, and gave her the steel handles on each side of the bed to grip. Theresa wheeled the sterile table out of the closet and uncovered the instruments so they were all ready for

Helen gave 3 pushes, and the baby’s head crowned, covered with blond hair. Dr. J told her to push gently, and a perfectly formed baby girl slipped into his hands. He suctioned out her mouth, she grimaced, and let out a nice cry! The beautiful sound of that first cry never ceased to amaze me! I pulled the Apgar cord and wrote down the birth time: 11:50 p.m. Her one minute apgar was excellent at 8/10 as Dr. J. placed her in the warmer. She appeared to weigh about 5 pounds, which is slightly small for 37 weeks. I congratulated Helen and Mike on their new baby girl and rubbed her dry with the warmed blanket and put a cap on her head to help her retain her body heat.

As Dr. J massaged Helen’s abdomen to deliver the placenta, he said, “You have another baby in here, Helen! You’re having twins.” Helen immediately began to cry and said, “Oh no, how will we ever pay for another baby?” Mike turned pale. My heart quickened as twins are always a high risk delivery, especially surprise twins! I had never delivered twins in the birthing room before, but it was too late now to move her to the delivery room! I pressed the call light and told the tech at the desk what was happening and asked her to get the resident in here and the Neonatal ICU nurse stat! The room quickly filled with extra staff so we barely had room to turn around.

Thankfully, the second baby was also head down and came out equally as easily 5 minutes later. She was also a girl! Dr. J placed her next to her sister in the warmer and we quickly dried her off. She also had excellent Apgar scores and appeared to weigh around 5 pounds. We handed one girl to Helen and the other to Mike to hold, and they both seemed to relax a little as they began to get over their shock of having not one, but TWO new babies!

Surprise twin girls!

Surprise twin girls!

I silently prayed that Helen and Mike would realized that God could give them His love, strength, and finances in Christ Jesus if they would only trust Him. I thought of how many childless Christian couples who would absolutely love to raise those beautiful twin girls in the nurture and admonition of the Lord! Children are so precious to God because He creates all of us.

Lo, children are an heritage from the Lord; and the fruit of the womb is His reward. Happy is the man who hath his quiver full of them… Psalm 127:3, 5

The father of the righteous shall greatly rejoice, and he that begetteth a wise child shall have joy of him. Thy father and thy mother shall be glad, and she that bore thee shall rejoice. Proverbs 23:24-25

After I woke up the next afternoon, I was glad it was my day off, giving me some extra time to think and pray. I continued to pray for the new twins to be healthy and receive Christ as Savior at a young age. Sometimes it’s difficult to be content and be single since most of my friends are married and having children. I wonder if God will ever give me a husband and children? I know His will for me today is to simply fix my eyes on Him and be content. I opened my Bible and read,

Not that I speak in respect of want; for I have learned, in whatever state I am, in this to be content. Philippians 4:11

It always encourages me to read this and think of the great Apostle Paul who God used to write these words. Apparently he was single, or a widower during the last part of his life and had to learn contentment also. I decided to get out my cassette tape on “Social Relationships” by Dr Stephen Olford to review Biblical principles of companionship, comradeship, courtship, and singleness. I always feel better after listening to it! Especially when he says, “You dear young people, if God wants you to marry, He will NEVER allow you to miss meeting your life partner!”

Dear Lord, Help me to rest in You in sweet contentment and just live one day at a time. Thank you that I am single today and that Your ways are so much higher than my ways and that You make no mistake! Amen.

Reflection – 2015

I was thrilled to find Dr. Olford’s message at the following link:

http://www.sermonindex.net/modules/mydownloads/viewcat.php?cid=426&min=20&orderby=titleA

I think every single person and parent would greatly benefit and be encouraged by this message! The Lord has allowed me to continue to be single as I near my sixth decade of life. I no longer fear being single as I did when I was younger, because God has been so kind and gracious to me over the years, and provided for my every need. I praise Him for His precious gift of contentment!

Some years ago, God guided me to the wonderful verse in Isaiah 54:1

Sing. O barren, thou who didst not bear; break forth into singing, and cry aloud, thou who didst not travail with child; for more are the children of the desolate than the children of the married wife, saith the Lord.

After I read this verse, the Lord showed me that there was no limit to the number of spiritual children I could have! How wonderful!

Next week I will continue with the next surprise of that very busy night in Labor and Delivery!

 

Fellowship in Austria and France

Austrian Alps – June 29, 1978

From Passau, Germany I took a boat down the not-so-blue Danube River to Linz, Austria using my Eurail Pass which was also good on the boat as well as trains. I met two American ladies and two German ladies on the boat, so I was their go between and  translator! They seemed to understand my German and I understood the German ladies which was so exciting! From Linz, I took the train to Salzburg, site of the Sound of Music film. I enjoyed staying in an Austrian guest house for $6 per night which included breakfast. It was fun to chat with a Swedish girl who was spending the summer there while studying music. I took a fabulous “Sound of Music” tour through the Alps, enjoyed a chamber concert in Mozart’s house, and toured Old Salzburg which is very quaint and charming. This is my favorite town by far!

 

Sound of Music Tour

Sound of Music Tour

After two days there, I came to visit the two American families who are sharing God’s Word with the people near Innsbruck, Austria high up in the Alps. They are in the middle of a fellowship week with several Swiss Christian believers who have joined them. They all meet together every morning for Bible study, singing of hymns, and prayer and then go out in the afternoon to share the gospel in the various neighborhoods. I was so blessed in going with a Swiss nurse door to door. She shared the gospel as I prayed silently for each person to open their heart to the Lord. I learned so much from her, and my German is improving daily. I understand much more than I can express in German.

Austrian Valley in the Alps

Austrian Valley in the Alps

Mrs. G., one of the American ladies, shared with me about Derrick, a single American Christian man who is working with them. Derrick’s fiancee came to visit him at Christmas time, but when she saw how difficult it is to live here, she broke their engagement and went home. They do things quite a bit differently here than I am used to in my home church, but the fellowship has been very refreshing.

I must admit I shed a few tears when I left Austria. I have such a burden for the people of Tyrol to receive Christ as their personal Savior, and just feel like I am meant to be there. But I’m not sure I would be comfortable working with this particular group of Christians.

France – July 3, 1978

It took me 20 hours on the train to get to this city in France! I felt so badly that I arrived at 2:30 a.m. Sunday morning and had to get the Pastor and his wife out of bed to come walk with me from the train station to their apartment. But they were so gracious. We slept a few hours and then got up for church which was held in their living room with about 20 people. We had such a precious time of fellowship as they shared with me the joys and heartaches of starting a church from nothing.

French Train Station

French Train Station

Mrs. K. and I talked many hours about my options for returning to the German speaking people. She said the nurses work 12 hour shifts in the hospitals and they are rather archaic compared to American hospitals. She said I would be so exhausted, that I would have little time after work to minister to people. The other option is to work with a married couple, but this also has drawbacks. Mrs. K heard of an older couple who totally ignored the younger single lady who was trying to work with them. If it is a younger couple, jealousy could develop. So I guess the only other option is to wait for God to give me a godly husband who is led the same way as I am.

And therefore will the Lord wait, that He may be gracious unto you, and therefore will He be exalted, that He may have mercy upon you; for the Lord is a God of justice; blessed are all they that WAIT for Him. Isaiah 30:18

Reflection – 2014

I spent my third week of my journey in northern Germany visiting a cousin of my friend. I have to admit I was rather travel weary by then with sleeping in different beds and began longing to return home where things were familiar and I could freely speak English. It was also rather anticlimactic after the sweet fellowship with the believers in Austria and France. When I arrived back in the USA, I continued with my job as a diabetes hospital nurse on evening shift.

The Lord has continued to use me as a single lady over the years and has taught me to simply be content with Him and live in the moment. I used to wonder why He never chose to give me a godly husband, but now I simply concentrate on enjoying Christ and growing in His grace. I can only see my little corner of the world, but He has the grand picture for all eternity! I take great comfort and delight in knowing that His ways are so much higher than my ways.

“….for I have learned, in whatever state I am, in this to be content.” Philippians 4:11

“For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways, saith the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:8-9