Come Aside and Rest A While

Summer – 1976 – Midwest USA

I started out the summer working as a Nursing Assistant at Children’s Hospital where I had my clinicals last summer. They floated me one day to the burn unit and the nurse asked me to watch her do the dressings on a 2 year old so I could do them the next time with her watching. As a senior nursing student, they allowed me to do some procedures under close supervision. The little boy stood in his crib as she began to unwind his dressings. As the burned skin was exposed, his blood ran down his legs and arms and he began to scream. I felt myself begin to black out and turned and sank into a nearby chair and put my head on my knees. After the blackness cleared, I stood up and went out into the hallway. The nurse finished the dressings and came out into the hallway to speak with me. I said, “I’m so sorry, but I thought I was going to faint. I have never witnessed anything like that before.” She said she understood and told the supervisor not to assign me to the burn unit again. They sent me back to the orthopedic unit where I was last summer. I guess I deal better with the kids in traction than the burned ones.

After 4 weeks of arising at 5 a.m. in order to catch the 6:30 a.m. bus to work, the dizziness, nausea, and weariness was almost unbearable. I could not smile at anyone and my soul was crying in agony to God. I felt like Elijah under the juniper tree crying out to God to take him home. (I Kings 19:4-7) My Pastor was very concerned about me and asked me to take a walk with him before church Sunday night. “Pam, I think you are so rigid right now and have planned everything so much that God can’t work. Let go, and let God do whatever He wants! For one week, don’t plan anything. Take every day as it comes and do everything the opposite you usually do. Go out to a restaurant and eat a meal, listen to the birds, take long walks in the woods. Don’t study your Bible for one week except to read a few verses in the morning.  It will make you a better Bible student in the long run.”

His words were quite a shock to me, but I was willing to try anything since I had lost all joy in the Lord. The next weekend, I drove up to see Jane for one night and we went hiking at the state park. I had to stop every 30 feet to rest a little. When I awoke on Monday, I was still so dizzy and exhausted that I called in sick. After praying about it the rest of the day, I decided I needed to resign and return to my parents’ home to rest the remainder of the summer. I called the head nurse and told her the situation, and she said she understood. After 7 quarters straight of school, with the last one in psychiatry and the demanding classes, my body was beyond exhausted.

My parents were very concerned about me also and were extremely kind to me. After 2 weeks of total rest, I began to feel like myself again and could smile and laugh! I just finished reading a little book by M. R. DeHaan MD called Broken Things. He said, “The Lord only breaks those whom He is going to make.” “Sunshine all the time makes a desert.” I understand better now that I don’t need to strive and push doors open, but just relax and let the Lord open or close the doors. His tenderness in giving me 2 months just to meditate and enjoy Him brings tears to my eyes.

My Dad kindly drove our travel trailer to the state park a couple hours away and set it up so my Mom and I could stay for the week while he returned to work. God has given my Mom and me very precious times together. I so enjoy walking through the woods listening to the rustling leaves, watching the butterflies and dragonflies fly from flower to flower. At night, the chirping crickets lull me to sleep, and the singing birds awaken me every morning. How I thank God for these precious blessings and restoring my health!

Camping at the State Park was so relaxing!

Camping at the State Park was so relaxing!

Reflection

Since 1976, I have had several other times in my life of total exhaustion when I have simply burned the candle at both ends and pushed my body too far.  As I read the passage in I Kings again about Elijah, he had just run for his life 93 miles to flee wicked Queen Jezebel who was trying to kill him! No wonder he was exhausted. After he said to God, “It is enough! Now, O Lord, take away my life; for I am not better than my fathers.” And as he lay and slept under a juniper tree, behold, an angel touched him and said unto him, Arise and eat. And he ate and then slept some more and ate some more. He was able to go 40 days and nights after that. Now I realize I am certainly not Elijah, but the cure was the same for me. Sleep and eat, sleep and eat.

The disciples were deeply grieving after burying their beloved friend, John the Baptist, who was beheaded by wicked King Herod. I love the passage in Mark 6:30-31which says And the apostles gathered themselves together unto Jesus, and told Him all things, both what they had done, and what they had taught. And He said unto them, Come aside into a desert place, and rest a while; for there were many coming and going, and they had no leisure so much as to eat.” It’s so wonderful that our dear Savior sees when we need to rest and provides it for us!

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3 petaled trillium wild flower reminds me of the Trinity!

A restful walk in the woods.

A restful walk in the woods with my sister, Marsha.

January, 2018

I am currently recovering from pneumonia and a horrific reaction to a medicine that put me in the hospital for 12 days. As I slowly regain my strength, I will repeat some of my most popular posts. Please pray for me to learn all the lessons God has for me during this time of recovery. I praise Him that He has made the Bible extremely precious to me as I lean hard on Him. The medicine caused some short term memory loss which was terrifying to me, but God quieted my heart when I remembered 2 Timothy 1:7, “For God has not given us the spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” 

If you have any encouraging Bible verses that you want to share with me and other readers here, please post them in the Comments section. May you have a blessed week of “Looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith.” Hebrews 12:2.

Pamela, APRN

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Oasis in the Swiss Alps – Part 2

Wengen, Switzerland – August, 1989

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Joanie Yoder

On a crystal clear bright blue sky day, I took the train up to 11000 feet to the Jungfrau mountain with Joanie Yoder, one of the tour leaders. She and her husband started a drug and alcohol rehab center for men in England called Yeldall Manor.She told us some amazing stories of men receiving Christ as their personal Savior and being delivered from addiction to alcohol or drugs and having transformed lives. After her husband died of cancer, she felt led to minister to other widows so she speaks to ladies’ groups all over Great Britain and the USA.

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Dog sledding and skiing in August!

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Japanese ice sculpture in the ice palace.

On top of the mountain, they had skiing and dog sledding, but I just watched. I had a hard time staying warm and got lightheaded and dizzy from the altitude, so we went to the cafe and had hot chocolate. Then we went inside the ice palace where they had these incredible ice carvings. Rather than take the train, we decided to hike back down the mountain to Wengen which was fun. We made frequent stops along the way to enjoy the beauty and share what God has been teaching us over the years. The fellowship was so rich combined with the spectacular alpine beauty. Thank You, Lord, for such a wonderful day of refreshment!

Bluest sky I ever saw on top of the Jungfrau.

Bluest sky I ever saw on top of the Jungfrau.

I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills. From whence cometh my help? My help cometh from the Lord, who made heaven and earth. Psalm 121:2

On our one rainy day, a couple invited me to go with them to Lucerne. Friends of theirs, a retired German pastor and his wife, also joined us. Pastor Will speaks excellent English, has a great sense of humor, and really loves the Lord. When he was a teen, he was forced to live in a Nazi youth camp during World War 2 and moved from country to country every year during the war. But God’s ways are higher than man’s ways, and he received Christ as his Savior during a secret Salvation Army meeting! Talk about God plucking him out of the pit! A year later, many of his friends were killed in an air raid, but he was spared when he jumped in a hole he had just dug. Now he smuggles Bibles into eastern Europe. He said Russia and Hungary are wide open, but Romania is suffering terribly. He showed me photos of a crowded Baptist church in Russia and let me take a photo of his photo to show the folks back home.

Standing room only inside packed Russian church in 1989.

Standing room only inside packed Russian church in 1989.

After dinner, we all meet again for a time of fellowship, speakers, and singing. One evening, they asked me to share my testimony and tell of some opportunities I have had to share the gospel over the years. Another evening, we watched a wonderful film made in the Swiss alps called “Treasure of the Snow” by Patricia St. John about forgiveness. (See my recent post on the life of Patricia St. John, RN)

On Sunday, one of the men who also speaks some German, went with me to the Protestant church in town to worship. I was disappointed in the cold formal worship service. I could understand the German prayer and hymns, but not the sermon. We then returned to the hotel for the English worship service led by Peter Letchford for the tour group. I was so blessed by his continuing message on the gates of Jerusalem. We had a delicious midday dinner in the hotel dining room and then strolled around the village and rested the remainder of the day.

Hotel dessert buffet was delicious!

Hotel dessert buffet was delicious!

It’s fun to speak German again, but I’m rusty. My German has come in handy a few times when I’ve been with the different groups on the day trips, but many Swiss speak excellent English. I think they are required to learn German, French, Italian, and English when they attend the public schools. Their fluency in many languages puts most Americans to shame.

Another day I  enjoyed visiting Ballenberg, a Swiss open air museum village with houses from previous centuries. It was fascinating to watch a man make a huge vat of Swiss cheese over the fire, and a woodcarver make an intricate horse. Our picnic in the woods with other single ladies in the tour group was delightful.

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Making Swiss cheese over the fire.

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The woodcarver makes a horse.

Hiking through the lush green valley beside the river to Trummelbach Falls another day was delightful. We paused to watch the farmers rake freshly cut hay by hand who reminded me of the Amish back home.

Trummelbach Falls flow inside a mountain.

Trummelbach Falls flow inside a mountain.

On the last day, I visited a real castle on Lake Thun. I had fun pretending I was a damsel in distress hanging out the castle window, but no prince charming showed up….:) The boat ride back on the lake was a relaxing way to end my wonderful two weeks in the Swiss Alps.

Castle on Lake Thun

Castle on Lake Thun

A damsel in distress?

A damsel in distress?

After breakfast the next morning, we all boarded the train back to the Zurich airport. I could not hold back my tears when I said goodbye to everyone before we boarded the plane. I know I will probably not see most of these dear brothers and sisters until we are worshiping God together in heaven. I am so glad that goodbye is not forever for fellow believers.

Reflections

I had the joy of meeting Joanie Yoder again the next year when she was in the Midwest USA for a visit. I googled Yeldall Manor and was thrilled to see it looks like the Christian rehab center is still going strong! God so wonderfully answered my prayer to let me meet other Christian single ladies.

In a recent prayer letter from missionaries in Romania, they reported wide open doors to share the gospel in high school assemblies with hundreds of young people who are hungry to hear the good news about Jesus Christ. It will be wonderful to learn in heaven how God used the Bibles Pastor Will smuggled to them for so many years when they did not have freedom to worship.

I heard on Christian radio that over 7000 Christians were killed for their faith in 2015. How we need to pray for persecuted believers around the world to be strong in Him. May we all keep “Looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.” Hebrews 12:2

Listen for the trumpet of the rapture! Perhaps today Christ will come for His own!

(I Thessalonians 4:13-18)