April 11, 1978
It seems hard to believe that it has been over one year since I graduated! I now officially have my one year of experience in the hospital as a medical-surgical nurse which most places require before you can specialize. The Lord continues to lay upon my heart a desire to reach the German speaking people with the Gospel in some way, so I decided to book a flight there in June for three weeks. I’m going alone to see what it is like to maneuver in a foreign country as a single lady. It will also force me to speak German more and meet people! I will also be visiting a missionary couple in Austria and another in France who are supported by the Bible church I attend. My German friend gave me the name of her two cousins to visit, so I’m waiting for a reply from my letter.
I am investigating the possibility of being a civilian nurse in a US Army or Air Force hospital in Germany. I met a nurse at the hospital who worked in Germany ten years ago as a civilian nurse. She encouraged me to apply, so I did. I feel very unchallenged at work and am ready for a change!
I was so blessed this morning when I read in John 4 about the woman of Samaria and how God used her mightily!
Come, see a man, who told me all things that ever I did. Is not this the Christ?…And many of the Samaritans of that city believed on Him for the saying of the woman, who testified, He told me all that ever I did. John 4:29, 39
What a comfort and joy to know that the Lord is able to use the one lonely testimony of a single woman to change a whole city. I keep thinking of living in Germany alone with joy and yet fear and trembling wondering if the Lord can really do an effective work through me who am nothing? And then I remember Hudson Taylor’s statement who founded the China Inland Mission,
The Lord was looking for someone weak enough to use, and He found me.
April 14, 1978
I received this letter three days later from Mrs. K, who labors with her husband who is a pastor in France.
These are very difficult countries to live in compared to the USA because of the loneliness. But I know that the Lord has prepared you if He sends you here. I really do not know how to put it into words, because you have to be in this circumstance to understand. Month after month, year after year, without seeing anyone come to receive Christ as their Savior – this is the hardest thing to bear. I pray that the Lord will give you someone to help you if you go. I am so afraid for you alone. Forgive me my earthly concern. We will talk about all this when you come to visit.
Love in Christ, Mrs. K.
I can’t believe that almost the exact time I was writing about the woman of Samaria and rejoicing in going alone to Germany, Mrs. K. was writing this letter stating how much she was praying for someone to go with me. I just feel all mixed up now. My sister, Linda, said no mission board would ever send out a woman alone. I guess I have never heard of one doing that. I will just go forward with the trip and see what the Lord does. I truly just want to follow Him. I am willing to go, and I am willing to stay right here.
Dear Lord, I give my life to You and ask that You use me for Your glory and honor in whatever way You want and wherever You want. Amen.
Reflection – 2014
In rereading my journal, I now recognize the romantic notions I had about the mission field, even though I tried hard to dispel them. But yielding my life to Him at that time still holds true today! It is wonderful to trust in Him and let Him choose the path of our life. The Lord taught me so many valuable lessons through that first trip abroad alone in Europe. Lord willing, I will share those lessons with you on my next post.
Yield yourselves unto God, as those that are alive from the dead, and your members as instruments of righteousness unto God. Romans 6:13